Monday, April 18, 2016

the weakest season...

Oh the different seasons of life. As I look back at each season in my life I know God indeed had a plan.  I can see...

how He lead

how I felt in the moment

how He was there the whole time even when I didn't "feel" Him 

and oh the times I did feel His presence

This *season* I am in right now feels different than any other. I haven't been able to put my finger on the feelings until recently. 

"This is the weakest I have ever felt in my whole life."-tumbled out of my mouth this week.

I have had seasons of great weakness. When my own strength was gone-all I had left was to lean on Him. When the pressure of weakness hits it is a perfect storm to isolate and leave the lies in the darkness not to bring them into the light. 

In the midst of this weakness I hear the Lord calling...calling me back to the place of leaning. Back to the place of embracing weakness because when I am weak He can show himself strong. When I let go of control He can move on my behalf. 

"Who is this coming up from the wilderness, Leaning on her beloved?" Song of Solomon 8:5

When I emerge from this season I know I will look different-unrecognizable in fact. My prayer is to be found leaning on my beloved.