Oh the different seasons of life. As I look back at each season in my life I know God indeed had a plan. I can see...
how He lead
how I felt in the moment
how He was there the whole time even when I didn't "feel" Him
and oh the times I did feel His presence.
This *season* I am in right now feels different than any other. I haven't been able to put my finger on the feelings until recently.
"This is the weakest I have ever felt in my whole life."-tumbled out of my mouth this week.
I have had seasons of great weakness. When my own strength was gone-all I had left was to lean on Him. When the pressure of weakness hits it is a perfect storm to isolate and leave the lies in the darkness not to bring them into the light.
In the midst of this weakness I hear the Lord calling...calling me back to the place of leaning. Back to the place of embracing weakness because when I am weak He can show himself strong. When I let go of control He can move on my behalf.
"Who is this coming up from the wilderness, Leaning on her beloved?" Song of Solomon 8:5
When I emerge from this season I know I will look different-unrecognizable in fact. My prayer is to be found leaning on my beloved.